Kicked it with Boy in the PM first showing him a little about blogging and then reading while he worked on his math. I am reading the book Mustard Seed vs. Mcworld which I think is going to be a very important read for me... I am very primed about the reality of globaliztion and Emerging Global Youth Cultures.

After church I got to witness a great documentry done by Vishal Malgawadi about low caste Hindus rejecting Hinduism because of the cast system and looking for other religous paths to take like Budhism and Christianity.

My heart goes out to Laura and her family. Her Grandfather, her Dad's father, passed away. Her Dad has gone to Mexico to be with the family there. Laura is a Neighbor of Kathy Henry and Boy's girl friend. I spent part of the afternoon and evening helping to pick up Laura's sister from her job at Magic mountain and sharing dinner with their family. You will be in my prayers.

Today I am thinking about "bullet time". Not in the movie sense like The Matrix... but in real life. A friend from our neighborhood has lost his brother to a policeman's bullet. He was never on the "right side" of the law. Bullet time is unforgiving. I am a pastor. My joy is to help people down the road of forgiveness, reconciliation, and redemption. I am glad today as our celebration of Easter aproaches... That Jesus died publically between two thieves... One of these thieves found grace there... I hope and pray that our friend found grace in "bullet time". Pray for me as I will have a chance to offer some thoughts and prayers in a memorial service as we seek to celebrate a life lived -- even life that ends on a cross or "bullet time".

The things that will destroy America are prosperity-at-any-price,
peace-at-any-price, safety-first instead of duty-first, the love of soft
living, and the get-rich-quick theory of life.
Theodore Roosevelt

Jude is leaving for an InnerChange conference in Cambodia for two weeks starting tomorrow. Pray for her and for InnerChange as we seek to continue to grow in wisdom and depth.

Could someone explain why NPR radio is saying that some are questioning about if we have started an illegal war according to international law? I do not like the idea of this. I do not know much about international law.

Today at Kill Radio we Featured Viva Network and then spun two whole albums. What a range... Daniel Amos and Mahalia Jackson. Spun for a whole extra hour too... ; ) I also spun some of Snapoe's beats and Wayne Lytle's Animusic Music.

Prayer meeting at 8am to 9am every Tuesday... part of community life that I am so greatful for in this amazing journey of life that I am on.

Why I can not choose sides.

I have been wrestling in my soul with why I can not find myself either for or against this current war in Iraq... What has come to me is the thought that we will be judged by the measure that we use to judge... I believe we are exposed in this conflict not in the best of our humanity, but in the stuborness of our humanity. Stop for a momment and imagine how foolish we seem from the perspective of the Creator who gave us this earth. Apocalypse (as in the book of Revelations) is nothing short of God taking it -- this planet -- back from us because in our current state as people we can't handle the earth ourselves. I refuse to think in us and them categories. The Old Testament Prophets talks about God Judging the nations -- all of them. To whatever degree we are wrong with the world... we are responsible. Most of us take the trash every week and think nothing of the land-fill that we are filling with garbage. God resists the proud and gives grace to the humble. We need a whole lot of grace -- all of us. God will hear the humble cry out where ever they are in the world. May we be the humble in the end... seeking to live out of a heart of love. When 2 Elephants fight... it is the grass that suffers (an African Proverb). Matthew 25, Isaiah 58, II Peter 1:3-11, and Ephesians 3:14-21 are passages that are keeping me focussed and bussy with my life -- all realted to my sense of life calling. I do not think that I have grown to the point of knowing where and how I will be engaging the larger structures. I am able to call others with a similar call to a path that can lead to faithfulness to God's initiative. I keep hearing my sense of the Holy Spirit saying to me do not neglect to plant small seeds of faith. I have more important things to do than to argue the rights and wrongs of this war -- I have to stay on track with my part. All of the great trees in the world started out as seeds. I go on rooted in my faith -- in God. I will keep on planting seeds.

Hi, I'm Katharine Miles of Viva Network. I just had the chance and privilege to talk with John "JAW" Watson on Kill Radio.We were talking about 'children at risk,' that is the 1.2 billion people under 18 years of age who are at risk from situations as diverse as poverty, family breakdown, drugs and addictions, street life, gang culture, AIDS, sexual exploitation, war and injustice. I am passionate to see these children empowered and transformed by the hope that comes from an ongoing encounter with God. Check out Viva Network.

Today we paid our respects to Mrs. Sanchez and laid her body to rest. May she have found rest for her soul. Amen.

My friend Rei sent me these song lyrics. Some of you might find the music hard to digest... also being made in the "Image of God" does not make us god... that said, I think in the long lens of history, the Churches that have taken a clear stand against all war will have to be recognized as closer to a vision of humanity in the image of God. I am personally glad that the north won against the south in the American Civil war. The Quakers stopped participating in slavery before that war (Thanks to the work of John Woolman), and were trusted to pick up the dead and the dying of the battle fields during the war. The Mennonites have a similar history of resisting the whole involvement with war.

An ethic of power concerns me. If we win this war, will others aspire to be like us in military power... in a hundred years...
The race to be the most powerful leads to a dead end alley with no exit. Nukes were a warning about this direction. Peace Making must resist evil. The danger of using force is that we become like what we fear.

A power orientation also destroys reciprocity. Jesus came as a baby; this is how God approaches us, because he wants intimate relationship with us. We cannot control others with fear and truly be close to them. It is more noble to die like Christ for love than to die for war. In studies about marriage relationships, if power becomes the center of the relationship, the peson who cares the least for the relationship ends up having the most power. This can kill the quality of life within the relationship.

The lyrics are from the band, "System of a Down" the album name is "steal this album" the song is call BOOM!


Boom!
I've been walking through your streets,
Where all your money's earning,
Where all your building's crying
And clueless neckties working,
Revolving fake lawn houses,
Housing all your fears,
Desensitized by TV,
Overbearing advertising,
God of consumerism,
And all your crooked pictures
Looking good, mirrorism,
Filtering information,
For the public eye,
Designed for profiteering,
Your neighbor, what a guy.

BOOM, BOOM, BOOM, BOOM,
Every time you drop the bomb,
You kill the god your child has born,
BOOM, BOOM, BOOM, BOOM.

Modern globalization,
Coupled with condemnations,
Unnecessary death,
Matador corporations,
Puppeting your frustrations,
With the blinded flag,
Manufacturing consent,
Is the name of the game,
The bottom line is money,
Nobody gives a fuck.
4000 hungry children leave us per hour,
From starvation,
While billions are spent on bombs,
Creating death showers.

BOOM, BOOM, BOOM, BOOM,
Every time you drop the bomb,
You kill the god your child has born,
BOOM, BOOM, BOOM, BOOM
BOOM/BOOM/BOOM/BOOM/BOOM/BOOM/BOOM

Why, why, why, why must we kill, kill, kill, kill
Our own, own, own, own kind...

BOOM, BOOM, BOOM, BOOM,
Every time you drop the bomb,
You kill the god your child has born,
BOOM, BOOM, BOOM, BOOM
BOOM/BOOM/BOOM/BOOM/BOOM/BOOM/BOOM
Every time you drop the bomb.

Mrs. Sanchez has passed away from cancer. This is a family that Jude and I have known all the years we have been in LA. She has raised a good family including Miguel and Ramiro who both are working in the health care professions. They are two young men that Paul Smith and Kathy Henry have been mentoring over the years. Any and all prayers are welcome for the family. Pray as we plan to remember and celebrate her life… and grieve her passing from us.

Tonight, Thursday March 20, 2003, there will be a Viewing 5 –10 PM at Groman Mortuary 830 W. Washington Blvd. LA. CA. 213-748-2203

Saturday March 22, 2003, there will be a mass at 9:15 AM. At Iglessia Santo Tomas 1321 S. Mariposa LA CA (at the Corner of Pico and Mariposa).

We will pay our last respects to Mrs. Sanchez at Forest Lawn Cemetery in Glendale
1712 south Glendale Ave. Glendale, CA.

War War Rumors OF War War
WAR WAR Bombs big Bombs
Rumors of War and Big Bombs
Big Bombs To Disolve All Our Dislikes

Life Defined By Dislikes... We Need More Bombs
We have a lot of big Dislikes... We Need A Lot More Big Bombs

Jesus Said, "Love Your Enemies"... is that crazy or what???
Have you Hugged a Bomb today? or ever???

As the Pain in the World Increases
As the Worries in the World make it all seem dark...
It is the Quality of Light and Love that will Matter the most
and even a small Light shines the brightest in the dark.

Shine on and find a way to show your Love today...
Or we won't have much culture worth didly squat to share with the next Generation.

(Reflections on Matthew 24...* Verse 12 and the next ever so human war that has just begun.)
PS. Jesus was not stupid or naieve. We either chose the path of love or we forget what it means to be human and become inhumane. "it's not so Strange" DA

John Jaw Watson and The Hyperesthesia Show 3/18/03
This is the only Web Cast where you can here Jazz, New Wave, and Hip-Hop on the same show. (see Kill Radio link).

Ruth Naomi Floyd – an amazing Jazz Vocalist and song writer, and a good friend of mine. She has a penetrating vision both for her art and for life itself. I feel it a real privilege to have contributed some song lyrics for a few of her songs.

1. Come Sunday 5:18 Ruth Naomi Floyd Paradigms for Desolate Times
2. The Last Shall Be First 4:56 Ruth Naomi Floyd Paradigms
3. Revelations 5:24 Ruth Naomi Floyd
4. Messages 3:59 Ruth Naomi Floyd
5. Stand to the Glory 3:49 Ruth Naomi Floyd
6. Some Other Spring 5:37 Ruth Naomi Floyd
7. Path of Life 4:47 Ruth Naomi Floyd With New Eyes
8. Relinquish 5:39 Ruth Naomi Floyd With New Eyes
9. Responsibility 6:42 Ruth Naomi Floyd Walk and Not Be Faint
10. Train Underground 5:27 Ruth Naomi Floyd
11. A Flower Is a Lovesome Thing 5:10 Ruth Naomi Floyd
12. Walk and Not Be Faint 4:20 Ruth Naomi Floyd

Daniel Amos: Alarma Chronicles Vol I. – A Friend of mine recently said to me that if Joy Division didn’t lose it’s Joy then it would be Daniel Amos. Both explore the darker parts of the soul with its deepest longings... Somehow Daniel Amos Just does not ultimately lose hope... and they are still rocking it today.

Azreil the Activist: Axiomatic EP – I have received my first press pack that has some tunes worth playing. A real Heart from Kansas City who grew up in the church... Rebelled to get to the real. Then discovered that the real on the street level was no delight... Came back to the Church with a determination to bring his homies with him. Blunt honest lyrics that give any listening soul pause to think... And all with a flow that does not pause at all.

The 24 hour a day Intenet spot at Wilshire and Normandy has become Boy1 and Jaw's homework spot. A greeat spot for DSL connections as well.

In Less than a Month LA Street Productions will be having an art show at Fuller Seminary (The week of April 7th). The active members planning to participate in this show are: Boy1, Rei, Wil, Werner, and Jaw... and Special K. Check out the article written by Justin Bell and copied here 3/14/03. Heather, the guys are asking what's up with you??? I told them the truth that you are in love ; ) !!!

I am a seed planter. Today some friends recognized that some of the seeds I planted years ago have grown up and has it's own life... What a priveledge and what a gift... I am glad that I have been a positive influence...and I thank God for all that grows.

Mrs. Sanchez passed away from cancer last night. This is a family that Jude and I have known all the years we have been in LA. She has raised a good family including Miguel and Ramiro, who both are working in the health care professions. They are two young men that Paul Smith and Kathy Henry have been mentoring over the years. Any and all prayers are welcome for the family. Pray as we plan to remember and celebrate her life… and grieve her passing from us. The wake is Thursday Night and the Funeral is Saturday the 22nd of March at 9:15 am at Santo Tomas Catholic Church.

A friend called me from prison this AM. He plead guilty so that the courts would strike one of his felonies…otherwise he would have come under the three strikes law. Collect calls are the only way we get to talk. He has less than a year before he gets out. The three strikes law is one of the worst laws on the books. A crime of Passion in ones youth…And then two other felonies… Like stealing because you were hungry and a Paper crime of failing to report to your parole officer on a certain date cause you are tired, sick, confused and homeless… can get you “3 hot meals a day and a cot” without your freedom for 25 years to life – a mandatory sentence… don’t we think our Judges can discern what kind of punishment is deserved under the law??? California has become the prison capital of the United States. God knows that redemption is possible: Moses was a Murderer, King David an Adulterer, Paul was a Persecutor of the Church, Jacob was a con artist…William Booth was a reformed Drunk, Nicky Cruz a transformed gang leader, Chuck Colson was Nixon’s flunky corrupt lawyer… Must I go on??? Redemption is a Biblical theme… do we believe that redemption is possible??? I am glad that God does not operate on the three strikes law principle.

By Justin Bell

The inner city neighborhoods of Los Angeles. We see them on the news. We drive through them on our way to the airport. We may even do some casual ministry there. But do these neighborhoods mean anything tangible to us? Is the inner city a place that we can taste, touch, see, or breathe?
For most of us here at Fuller (myself included), lesser-resourced neighborhoods like Westlake (near Pico Union) are not a part of our daily experience. Though we do, indeed, sometimes experience moments of hope, sadness, and/or guilt regarding these areas of our city, these feelings are far too often vague and sporadic. I think this is due to the fact that we haven’t yet been saturated by the stories of the people out of the inner city. Indeed, we have looked at these stories before, but we haven’t taken the time or looked closely enough at them to allow them to speak over against us—to change our thoughts, beliefs, and behaviors at the individual level.
On Monday, April 7, during the Community Arts Festival here at Fuller, we’re going to have an amazing opportunity to look closer at life in the heart of Los Angeles—an opportunity to have the inner city speak over against us. A guild of artists called LA Street Productions, from around Westlake, will be presenting a gallery of work from 12pm-1pm in the Travis Breezeway. Having already spent some time with these men, I can say that they are not only amazing artist, but they are also amazing individuals who have overcome countless obstacles to develop themselves both personally and professionally. They are painters, they are poets, they are sculptors, and they are architects. More than just an art group, they are friends—friends who are willing to sharpen each other and even die for each other if necessary.
Though they are closely linked by their passion for art, each of these artists’ works is unique in mode, theme, and expression. Wilburd Estrada, primarily a painter, has been influenced by David Alfaro Siqueiros and Van Gogh. His painting, For Caesar Chavez (pictured above), reinterprets Siqueiros’ commentary on industrialism in terms of the injustice Latino’s have received with American immigration laws. “Freedom in America is a limited freedom,” Estrada says, “many Latinos aren’t allowed to have it, and when they finally do get it, they become slaves to credit banks.”
Alberto Castenada focuses on written word. His poem Rush Hour describes the streets as “a catwalk for women dressed in luxurious lust.” Those who drive through his neighborhood in fear and disgust are “veiled by pride and satisfaction”. While their “tinted windows go up, a man’s value goes down.”
His works spanning the mediums of architecture, printmaking, and painting, Werner Pastran is a “jack-of-all-trades”. One particular painting of his, Defaced, draws upon techniques found in street tagging. Himself never a street tagger, Werner says that he had hoped, through using these techniques, to criticize the spirit of hate, anger, and disillusionment that he believes is so widespread in the graphitti community. As an alternative to much the negative art that he sees around him, Werner tries, with every piece, to communicate the values of love and humility.
LA Street Productions was founded in 1997 by John Tiersma Watson, an InnerChange LA staffperson and husband of Professor Judith Tiersma Watson in the School of World Mission. Primarily made up of “11/2ers”—Latinos raised in 1st generation American homes—the group submits their work to public, private, and church galleries throughout the year. To help buy art supplies, the guild originally created and sold affordable trading cards throughout their neighborhood. Today, LA Street Productions still supports itself on trading cards, but also accepts donations.
Please come to the gallery in the Travis Breezeway April 7 and meet the incredible artists that make up LA Street Productions and view their work. There is a lot we can learn from these guys! Also, comic book artist Jim Krueger and visual artists Macha Suzuki and Moto Okawa will be there as well. And don’t forget that there’s pizza!
To find out more about LA Street Productions, visit their webpage at www.sonserver.com/lasp.

Nate Bacon from SF InnerChange is up in LA to visit us and to speak at a conference at Loyola Maymount called "A Symposium on Crime, Punishment, and the Common Good in California". Registration is $25.00... Sad I can't go cause I got too much homework to do. But some others from LA IC will be going.

Last Day of class... I learned a lot about music and the history behind it. got some more tools for understanding music... but most of all just grew in the Plain old Listening too it... expanding my awareness of genras... and a greater appreciation for the music that is out there. Now just all the homework for this class...

Today was defined by Homework. Wed. is my day off... Jude and I went out for dinner at a spot that Rei showed me a few years back in Korea town called Ko Rea Som (Map to Ko Rea Som , & Address). We decided that this is not a restaurant for vegetarians, but if you like Korean style Barbeque chicken or beef it really hits the spot. We then went to Circuit City to get a portable CD player. Decided that in terms of service Circuit City will be on my last choice list.

"Salvation is Free" if we embrace all that it implies ... both in the Biblical sense and in the sense that the Cranberries meant it in a fun grove in a pop song.

Well In the last two weeks I learned what html code is (just what it is...not how to use it)...added both a counter and a method for feedback comments. Strangely enough I now come back daily to see if I have any feedback... interesting aspects of my personality are showing up through this process. So I crave feedback... In the end if I am to remain authentic I need to do this journal first for myself. I am lerning through this process. Still thanks for taking a look anyway. Well I guess all entries don't have to be deep or profound. Playing music is good therapy for me... cause I can get stuck in my head at times... some of you stay stuck in music... and could use a little silence and listening to the music of your own soul for a while.

Well I do not think Koo Koo Roo is going to give up it's recipe for it's Chicken... Jude and I Keep coming back to this as a healthy meal out for $20... Does anyone know their recipe -- yum. That's taste for you... It gets you through the door, but does little or nothing of telling us which direction is North. (North for some of us African Americans is another way to say freedom.) I still am surprised how one can find a website for almost anything....

Yesterday was a day of significant conversations. Ed was open to learning about my hearts passion on Character Development. We live with who we are on the inside 24-7. II Peter 1:3-11 is one of my favorite Bible passages on this subject

Another Couple renewed their search for a community of faith that can embrace them in the journey of life. and so it goes...

Here is my Play list for Kill Radio. I will be talking about thinking Intergenerationally between tracks.

1. Realization 2:56 Ark Angel Ark Angel
2. Hat in Hand 3:47 Vigilantes of Love ELECTROMEO
3. The Way I Wanted 3:20 Beth Meres Tree
4. Respect 2:25 Aretha Franklin Best of Aretha Franklin
5. Track 07 3:38 Simply Groovy
6. Everything is Broken 3:15 Bob Dylan Oh Mercy
7. Cantan Los Ninos 5:55 Giovani Aniversaio
8. Track 04 4:31 Cranberries Best Of
9. Track 05 5:02 Bill Mallonee & Vigilantes of Love Audible Sigh
10. Track 07 2:24 Cranberries Best Of
11. Track 26 4:53 Rez XX
12. All the Faces 4:56 Zehnder Breathing
13. Treasure of the Broken Land 6:23 Mark Heard Satelite Sky
14. Hero 3:25 SuperChic[k] Last One Picked
15. Track 02 0:46 Scratch


16. Track 03 2:26 Blackalicious Arrow 2.8 MB
17. Track 07 4:14 Talib Kwali Quality 4.9 MB
18. Famlee Affair 4:24 Cauzin' Effekt Famlee Afair 5.1 MB
19. Fatherless Child 5:44 Mystic Cuts for Love Scars for Freedom 6.6 MB
20. Womanology 2:01 KRS ONE Prophets Vs. Profits 2.4 MB
21. Track 08 4:41 Grits 5.4 MB
22. Track 10 4:26 Pigeon John We Are Hip Hope 5.1 MB
23. Track 07 4:13 4.9 MB
24. Never Give Up 3:17 KRS ONE Spiritual Minded 3.8 MB
25. T-Bone Speaks 0:32 KRS ONE Spiritual Minded 635.8 K
26. Track 09 4:05 We Are Hip Hope 4.7 MB
27. Track 09 1:21 Grits 1.6 MB
28. Track 10 3:26 Blackalicious Arrow 4 MB
29. Track 02 0:46 Scratch 915.4 K

I have yet to et to sleep this last week before 1PM. This has got to change. I can not run on sleep deprivation and coffee forever. Good night...

Alberto and I have decided that second hand smoke inhalation at some Korean coffee houses can get in the way of concentration on homework. We have decided that the Internet cafe' on Normandy and Wilshire is a good spot to study at night. Anyone needing to hit the books and who works better in the context of friendship can probably entice me to go there. I have 3 papers due by the end of the quarter -- Friday 3/21/03.

Had fun having some hang time with Miriam. I am glad that our old car is working out for you. Still miss that old set of wheels in some ways.

Our pastor today reminded us that the Jesus that we encounter in the Bible is Passionate...Easily holding the attention of a crowd for 3 days straight, Clearing the Temple of money changers with a whip, and in other ways frequently confounding the authorities... To him the Jesus in some Popular movies and art is like "Jesus on Prozac", or, "If Mr. Rogers was Jesus".

It was a joy to be at Wendy's birthday party. It is fun to see the children celebrate life and know that the adults in their life are glad that they are alive. A gift it is to contribute to this kind of memories. What if every child in the world knew that they were wanted??? What a different world this would be!!!

A big shout out to Werner... you will be in my prayers in a special way during Lent. Chris... when will your eyes see how your art is recieved as a blessing??? I love you bro! Boy1... keep the music dialogue going...I look forward to the day you are playing an instrument. I will look for contexts for our art to grow. Rei... there is nothing wrong with wanting to do what is right in a world that often goes wrong. I respect you for this bro!!! Wil... you are a leader...I would like to encourage the growth of vision in your life. Everyone... Life on the inside matters... nuture the soul through prayer, reflection, and appropriate rest...

Essentials
often left behind
simply because it is easier
to live in distraction
than to strive for anything of significance.

Essence craves life
our search for meaning is Essential
it is human to long for significance
or hide in distractractions
competition, taught to us, teaches us
to strive against, measure up, look down, keep down, win at any cost... ???

essence, soul... craves the essentials of life...
Yet I am awake when sleep should be nuturing my dreams...
time to call it a night
remember again the essentials
Rest rather than strive
stay sensitive to stay alive...
pray, love, hug, and bless
-- embrace the best of humaness

Peace out ya'll

Once again I am up late at night and the Hellicopter flying outside our window... it just left and the sense that something is terribly wrong with LA as a city if we need to be watched like ants from the air won't seem to go away... I should be sleeping and then I would have missed this fun all together. Steve, are you reading this??? Still have yet to turn in since Tuesday before Midnight. It is time to learn the value of sleep... ZZZ... Maybe I need to join the hot milk club before bedtime for oldies... or I need a better evening ritual...

Well cutting out a Lot of sweets for Lent should help some... no more donuts a Magees for now.

Cancer is right now my least favorite word with war coming into a close second. Between Jude and I we have 6+ friends (or parents of friends) that are facing serious health issues related to cancer. and about war... it just adds to my already heightened sense of violence in the world. It takes an extra effort to plug into life in the positive without turning away from the pain in life. I have to burn a candle when I pray... not because it is something magical... but because without one I find concentrating on prayer nearly impossible. For some strange reason the light from a candle helps me calm down, focuss, and pray.

Jill you made my day toady!!! A pastor’s heart so much wants people to live more fully and freely with authenticity. I am glad that you have found Space for God a helpful guide into a more meaningful prayer life. Thanks for taking my advice and the kind feedback!!!

This KR Show came off a little Chaotic cause I was not use to the new set up. Kim has been given orders from the army to go for training as a hospital Chaplin. I have a few friends who are sick unto death unless God grants a miracle. And it is the end of a quarter at School and I am stressing to get the work done for that... got to learn how to do this accademic thing again.

JAW Playlist for KillRadio tommorrow.


1. Another Day in Limbo 4:30 Mark Heard Satelite Sky 5.2 MB
2. Awaken 3:42 Alpha R7 No More Fear 4.3 MB
3. Chris Key And Friends 8:50 10.2 MB
4. Elohim Considers Antedeluvia 1:44 Ark Angel
5. Fatherless Child 5:44 Mystic Cuts for Love Scars for Freedom 6.6 MB
6. He Don't Mind 4:00 Barry Taylor Love Songs for Underdogs 4.6 MB
7. Irene 4:13 TobyMac We Are Hip Hope 4.9 MB
8. Messenger of Destiny 5:31 Universal Free Orchestra Earth Bound Ear 6.4 MB
9. Never Give Up 3:17 KRS ONE Spiritual Minded 3.8
10. Ring them Bells 3:00 Bob Dylan Oh Mercy 3.5
11. Snapoe beats#6 3:12 3.7 MB
12. So Bright 4:05 SuperChic[k] Last One Picked
13. Stay of Execution 4:19 Deliverance Live in the Studio 5 MB
14. T-Bone Speaks 0:32 KRS ONE Spiritual Minded
15. tobyMac 3:54 Simply Groovy 4.5 MB
16. Track 02 0:46 Scratch 915.4 K
17. Track 03 2:26 Blackalicious Arrow 2.8
18. Track 04 4:37 Grits 5.3 MB
19. Track 05 5:02 Bill Mallone & Vigilantes of Love Audible Sigh 5.8 MB
20. Worship 4:32 Soul Jahz The Fault is History

Hooked up today with Salvador V., Sal, Joe, and finally got the beats from Tony B. Today. What creates the distance between souls? What does it take to recover real community? I am glad that the love in my heart remains for my friends.

Just finished trying to digest what I could understand of a 2 RollingStone Mag. and an Urb Mag. I have to be honest and say that I am way out of touch with many slices of "Popular" culture. I needed to tune out for a season to focuss on just grasping the basics of this Latin neighborhood I live in. I am 8 years young in this neighborhood... Loving life here with a lot to learn... Now I am finding help from my friends and neighbors to tune back in. What is clear is that there is a complex jungle of interests and preferences... pluss new emerging cut and paste realities... the sound scape echos from the thumping base of HipHop to pasionate Mariachi Music... Friends have lent me Music ranging from Gregorian Chant, The System of the Down, Out of the Grey, Jeff Beck, and NAS. Still learning how to listen and digest..or just wisely listen. The next generation of youth in my Neighborhood communicate the many significant thins by some form of high context referencing of music, TV, and Movies that have been shared in common.

This evening after a two mile walk with My Seetie, Jude, (she really doesn't like when I make possesive statements)... Chris, Roxy and their friend Ulysses came over for a late meal and finished off some home made stew that I had left. It is always a joy to share a little hospitality. Chris has been commissioned by a friend to do a piece of art work... sorry on my part for the last piece of info needed for the piece. I have know Chris and Roxy since '93. It will be 10 years this summer.

After Church Jude and I got together with Jenny... she has a big heart and is one of the people who cares about what is happening to Teens that are homeless and people who are exposed to too much violence. Meeting with her reminds me of the larger theme of who cares for the care givers? How do we help people find the way to balance giving with receiving?

Tuesday – Thursday of this past week I went through the first part of a leadership vision building training that is lead By CRM
called Refocusing Leaders. I found it very helpful and will in the next few days be sharing insights and reflections from the experience. One thought… What if you really paid attention to both your life and what you believed??? (I Tim. 4:16)…What if God has been at work in and through the fabric of your life trying to touch your heart, get your attention, and begin to guide you through your life??? What would happen if you paid attention??? What might happen if you ignored this??? Wouldn’t it be exciting to become part of the flow of history that matters…at least to God???

This AM I went again to a prayer guide I found of of jonnybaker blog. It is an interesting window to technology in service of what might lead us towards God. Check out this Labyrinth. I found this helpful in my own prayer life today... amybe you will too...

A BIG SHOUT OUT TO BOY1 WHO IS A LISCENSED DRIVER NOW!!! Thanks you Kathy H. for being there and and always being willing to offer a helping hand. Boy1 will be looking to buy a car... anyone out there in CA, LA with a good deal under 2K???

Without the strength of a personal commitment Our Experience of other is at best esthetic. Dag Hammerskold (?sp)

The last day of the month the Vineyard west side has a café gathering to encourage married couples. Brad shares some insights that we are encouraged to go and discuss with our life partners. Rei and Sandra joined us and we had a good time together… we went and share a meal at an “Islands Restaurant”. My visual distraction issues haunted me with some humor throughout the evening… as big TV screens showed Youthful adventurers Skating, skiing, riding… doing impossible stunts… Rei did 3 incredible mini pieces of artwork. (the size of trading cards). We decided that this could become part of our monthly patterns of life for a season… And friendships Grow.