Wednesday, January 29, 2003

I feel like I have two left feet. I am sick and out of town. I am not much use so I am working on my reading for the 2nd masters level class I am taking at Fuller -- probably toward a degree in Intercultural studies. Going to climb into bed early today... fever and sweats to boot. I guess that ain't just "hay fever"... Well I am glad for life anyway. I want to be able to function tommorrow... at least not miss class. I am glad that Jude is with me and that I am as fortunate as I am to share to share my life and dreams with such a soul mate. I'll pick up blogging this weekend.

Had a scare the other day... a mom came over asking about the whereabouts of her son... he had not come home the night before ... fortunately it was discovered that he had been with another part of family all along... so much of life depends on clear communication and attention. Spirituality is rooted in a healthy balanced awareness of God, ourselves, One Another, and our Environments. Christian Spirituality allows the presence and person of Christ illuminate at a deeper level all these realities. How much better life would be for us all if the love of God was manifested through our lives in all of these realms... I want to declare to everyone that God's love is looking for ways to manifest God's love to us and through us. I want to learn to be a clearer expression of God's love...
"Lord, Make me an instruement of thy Peace..." ... the prayer attributed to saint Francis...
Peace out...

Tuesday, January 28, 2003

Yo' This is Kim chekcin out this Jaw's thing
Here's are 2 poetry I wrote

Untitled (Based on Proverbs 30:8)

Don't give me 2 much $
or I'll call u a fool, boy
Don't give 2 little $
or I'll do things that make u look like a fool, boy

Do give me my daily dream:
food, bed, health, friends
Don't give me the American Dream:
crib, wheels, grass

Don't give a Railroad track, an eagle or a star
lest I 4-get folks who need u
nor lest I 4-get my gifts to serve, help, and give

Do give me a place where there is a star
where "I yam what I yam"
where "folks r yam what they r yam"


Why not be . . . #2? (Based on "Tuesday with Morris")
We're #2! We're #2! We're #2!
Loser! Loser! Loser!
We're #2! We're #2! We're #2!
Loser! Loser! Loser!

What is wrong w/ being #2?
No Pills, No -OH, No storkes!
No Headaches, No stress, No shit!

What is wrong w/ being #2?
Hell, Is that mother after me?
my creation? my wife? my car?
my job? all my shit?


A big shout out to Kim and his help with spinning some "Daniel Amos" on Kill radio as I seek to promote Daniel Speekman's book "Nothing but A Thief"... her reflections on the children on the streets of Lima Peru.

Monday, January 27, 2003

Yesterday as part of the missions committee of our church...we got to help support a sharp youg woman in her efforts to make a difference in the lives of some highschool youth. There is an African Proverb that says, "It takes a Village to raise a Child" -- and I would add certainly more than a Radio, TV, Or PlayStation... Pastor Brad was on the mark in talking plain about the human search for significance -- making clear the difference between having a sense of "vocation" and a "profession". Few are able to make both one and the same. Still their was enough in house church language to make it hard to follow for those outside of the church. I was able to play the surmon from last week on www.killradio.org because the open minded listener could bennefit if they would digest it. I wish more people knew Brad as a person...

After church I went to Wills house to witness the amazing beat down that the Radiers recieved at the hands of the Bucks. I still believe that sports is one of America's popular religions... the pain willfully inflicted on others to be on top was painfully clear. I felt vicariously the agony of defeat. I hope that some of my friends who are more hard core fans will not find this game a trigger for depression... so few are really conscious of the power of ritual... Will spent part of the time during the game fixing his van... and had something to look back at after the day was over. It is far better in my opinion to be a "sub"-creator" (As J.R.R. Tolkien Author of "The Lord of the Rings Trilogy" would say) than a consummer or spectator.

Kim and a friend joined us...thanks for the chips :) ... Rei and Sandra showed up after the game. I was able to squeeze in a quick game of chess in with Rei. I deeply value all of our friendships...maybe more than they know. So now this is public.

Kim rolled home...The others went bowling... and I went to "Orange"... a cyber cafe' to play a little while on the internet. Got there about 9pm...got home at midnight. This point of weakness will be addressed. Steve Hoke, you reading this yet??? In part I am feeling physically sick with hay fever. I have trouble sleeping anyway... I took a sudefed, and an alieve pluss some Robetussin...so I could sleep. I owe Kim an apology because I missed his page.

This morning was about casing out a site that Dora Ramos has found to offer health care to the homeless. I anticipate a some neat possibilities coming out of the partnership between The First Nazarene Church, Clinica Oscar Romero, and LA InnerChange. Ecclesiates 4 haunts me when I think about the real core needs of people trying to survive on the streets of LA -- Friendship and respect... with this alot more of us would make it through whatever we are dealing with.

Came back to Orange to blog a little bit. Got a page from my honey... we both are feeling under the wheather... maybe this is a flu and not just Hay Fever... Stayed focuss over all on the tasks at hand... now to do some erronands...

Saturday, January 25, 2003

What a day!!!
9:30am to 3:00pm ...I had fun leading Jude's class on a small tour of downtown LA. Gifts of insight as we discussed the context of cities and LA in particular...we re-shape the worlds we live in...the contexts out of which we seek to make meaning of our lives. Greater empathy for the poor and other cultures was really nurtured by this trip.

Sad note...I have lost touch of my friend John Smith... I hope his heart has not given out on him. The only mutual friend that we had has not seen him for months... maybe herion finally took him to his grave... in any case he was a soul that wanted to learn to love life rather than death.

3-4pm hung out at Tony B's house as he worked on his Playstation skillz. Resident Evil has turned the Horror Movie into an action / suspense game that you can play. I hope he liked the note I brought him. Briefly got to talk with his mom and dad.

4-6 PM Hung out with Glen... mostly shared music with him... He really liked Rez Band and Deliverance. Not groups he'll ever find on the radio or else where... so I burned him a mix of some of his favorites. I hope his mom can survive the flavors as well as my mom did.

took a nap ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

8-9pm had an impromptu Bible study with a friend The undisputed Mr. Joe...we looked at Revelations Chapter 1.

Listened to the "Superchic[k]" album I bought wednesday and found it suitable to share with the jr. high / highschool gals that Jude is mentoring. something better for the ear gate than Britney in my opinion. I am enjoying a class at fuller on Popular music at Fuller Seminary on Thursday...taught by Barry Taylor... I am doing the DJ thing and hope to come up with better skillz at feeding soulz while spinning disks.

Caught the end of a Mission impossible Movie... then some news... then blogging...and now back to sleep.

What a priveledge to share dialogues about life with others and to grow in this journey.

Being
Being Born
Living & Becoming
24 hours a day
7 days a week
365 days a year.

Each of us live
First with who we are
On the inside…

This is why
The Love of God
Calls us to Grow
From the inside out…

Life starts in the heart
And grows
On the inside.

By JAW 2002




Ready

Resurrection is the only hope we have --
Up out of the ashes of this reality
Is the Eternal Embrace of God.

Invitation now to taste On this earth God’s love
Given to the fearless
Full of faith
People of God

Invitation now to taste On this earth God’s power
Given to the humble
That cry out
with their whole heart to God

In the Name of Jesus
Available to all
Is an extraordinary life
Hidden in the ordinary day to day.

Look at the claims of the ordinary saints…

Mother Theresa said,
“ I have a little Hitler inside of me –
that is why I pray so much”

Luther sang,
“Though this world with devils filled
Should threaten to undo us…”

Hudson Taylor taught,
“God’s work done God’s way will not lack God’s Supply”

Saint Francis’s claim to fame,
“I just want to live like one of God’s Sparrows”




Now I come to Preach…to Teach, to speak there is victory over these streets. Time for a God centered mind-set…
A life with out regrets
A life of trials yet full of peace
A life both in and above these streets

Come to the souls mountain top
Look who you are serving and stop if it is not the top
There is one and one only Christ the Lord King of Kings
Let go of serving lesser things

I want to tell you that heavenly angles have it good
Sparrows do to if you really overstood this…
You could drop your worries about death, unemployment, and belonging
A good resurrection would be your only longing.

The eternal kind of life can start today
Like Christ’s Disciple’s learn to pray
“Our Father….” And really mean every word you say…


Resurrection is the only hope we have --
Up out of the ashes of this reality
Is the Eternal Embrace of God.

Invitation now to taste On this earth God’s love
Given to the fearless
Full of faith
People of God

Invitation now to taste On this earth God’s power
Given to the humble
That cry out
with their whole heart to God

In the Name of Jesus
Available to all
Is an extraordinary life
Hidden in the ordinary day to day.

Now I come to Preach…to Teach, to speak there is victory over these streets. Time for a God centered mind-set…
A life with out regrets
A life of trials yet full of peace
A life both in and above these streets.


POET BY JAW 2002

CONSCIOUS INTERPRETOR
IN TIME
SPEAKER OF PERCEPTIONS
PAST...PRESENT...AND ANTICIPATED FUTURES...

COMMUNICATION,
WORDS SHARED
AS AN ACT OF MEANING...
RECOGNIZE!
ALL SOCIAL ACTIONS
ARE CARRIED OUT
IN REFERENCE
TO THE MEANINGS WE MAKE
...OFTEN IN AND THROUGH THE WORDS WE SHARE

WHERE ARE THE REAL POETS???
THE PASTOR POETS
THE PROPHETIC POETS
PASIONATE AND IN TOUCH WITH LIFE POETS
ABLE AND READY TO INSPIRE POETS

EVEN MOST OF OUR ROMANTIC POP POETS
HAVE NOT INSPIRED A LOVE
STRONG ENOUGH
TO KEEP A FAMILY
TOGETHER...

ARE THEY POETS???

POET,
CONSCIOUS INTERPRETOR
IN TIME
SPEAKER OF PERCEPTIONS
PAST...PRESENT... AND ANTICIPATED FUTURES...

GOT SOMETHING TO SAY?
SPEAK UP!!!

WHERE ARE THE REAL POETS???
THE PASTOR POETS
THE PROPHETIC POETS
ENDOWED WITH POWERS OF REVELATION POETS
PASIONATE AND IN TOUCH WITH REAL LIFE POETS
ABLE AND READY TO INSPIRE POETS

SPEAK UP!!!
WHAT ARE THE WORDS YOU LIVE BY???
POET